I love army

WARNING: INAPPROPRIATE LANGUAGE

[edit] Sorry for the caustic language. There are just these very few things that I cannot tolerate, and army is one of them. Please pardon my use of expletives, and empathize that I must have been really agitated. Need an outlet, hahah.
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fucking national service, fucking stop exploiting us. I didn't choose to be born under this contract, and I have neither patriotism nor loyalty to Singapore. I had been neutral before, but now you've made me detest this country. I am utterly disgusted by the things you do, your work ethics and policies. Protect Singapore? I'm very sure majority of us will be willing to. Not. My life does not belong to Singapore, nor have I made any conscious decision to sell it to you. It is mine, and not yours to manipulate. We're not interested in fulfilling your best-unit ambitions, your pointless SATR quotas or shit ass covering. Don't fucking brainwash us by saying that we were given a choice and that it was us who chose to do national service. There are no human rights in imposing a choice on a kid when he isn't even empowered to decide otherwise. Migration is only possible when one is 21, independent and financially capable, so you suck as much as you can out of us before that option becomes available. Just fuck off, seriously.

Hello!

Hello friend! Thanks for visiting its nice to see you again.

Sorry for the scarce frequency of updates, Archi has kept me busy with all the submissions, and I've been occupied with dance and sports and still am. Weekends have almost always been saturated with birthday celebs for the INNUMERABLE number of OCT/NOV babies. As of now, I am < 10 hours away from my first paper, and after that I'd be left with my last two papers. My last paper ends next Tuesday! :D

School has been much more enjoyable after submissions have ceased, with exams as the last standing obstacle to total freedomm. ... albeit a shortlived one. It can only last till 11 dec, thanks to friggin reservist for a incontrovertibly INCOMPETENT squadron. So absolutely despise. They need a management overhaul.

Started studying a little lateee. Been playing too much computer games. Next time no more, hahaha. Mugging is actually pretty fun. I really have my wonderful HC friends to thank for nurturing in me this valuable appreciation for the academics. I'm studying PF now which is like basically physics, and surprisingly I'm enjoying it! Only sad thing is that it doesn't necessarily translate to me doing well in it. Urghh, struggling but I'm getting there I think. I have faith in myself.

Speaking of games, SO MANY AWESOME GAMES ARE OUT THIS/NEXT MONTH! Dragon Age, L4D 2, COD modern warfare 2. Walau, exams have to end soon.

I think my sympathetic system has gone a bit cranky. haven't really been feeling much stress for the past.. long time. Not even now when exam's tmr. It had probably stopped working somewhere along the way.

Okay back to structural system analysis. Byeee! If you want to play games let me know!

Lives

To me, it's about happiness and contentment, warmth and friendship, time and love, and the way they're achieved through an intricate concoction of each one or another. It's a delicate process of balance, between wants and needs, the priorities you believe in, and consequently the choices you effect in your partition of time, in concordance to your valuation of all the former. This balance is oh so hard to grasp! Decisions are so hard to make when the mind is in such stateless flux. I can't even identify a general direction, or understand what it is that I really want, or discern if my wants are what I need and whether they are what's best for me.

Time is love, and time is happiness. Time is solace and time is freedom. Time is whatever you want to apply it to, and there are so many things that I desire. How then, if I have not much time to spare for all these that I want, especially when I'm in the prime of my youth? As much as I'm struggling to squeeze out 'personal' time, I'm trying hard as well to incorporate all these into my 'occupied' time, and its not very easy when I'm so unmotivated in what I'm doing now. So far it's the friends that keep me going. I have 0 drive.

So I'm back at square 1, again. It's practicality vs passion. There's the school that's driven by the former, and there's the one that trusts on the latter to sail them through life. I don't know which one I belong to, and I don't really have an in-between choice. Howwww ahhh


Btw, I'm not emo-ing fyi. I am happy. Just very lost. :D / :S

















And.. life is about patience. Good things come to those that persevere. hahahah



To top it all off, in the past month, to date, and in the weeks to come, I have / am /had
1. In NUS jazztitude which I hardly have time for anymore.
2. Been chionging last minute for our team relay which we got 5th when we could have been less lazy and possibly gotten 3rd and RICHH.
3. been practicing for a charity rock concert at smu on Oct
4. Having latin classes
5. and helping out a friend in her school's prom performance in Dec
6. playing dmc4, and now there's grand tourismo for PSP
7. In a DE club which I haven't done anything for.
8. just joined the NUS.SO and went for my first prac on wed.
9. working at the esplanade.
10.going for the SDE halloween!
11. attending all the so many birthdays that happen week after week. Why are so many friends born in oct/nov! it's such a bad time.
12. yet to start on exam preparations

Lets see how I survive. Id have leveled up if I can do all these and still achieve a cap of 3.5 hahaha.

Guess what

I may be switching course!

1. NTU sports science and management
2. NTU accountancy
3. NTU biomedical sciences and TCM
4. NUS biomedical sciences
6. physio

5. stay archi

6. either 1 of the 1-5, then dentistry
7. either 1 of the 1-5, then medicine

8. either 1 of the above, then Duke-NUS postgrad med / NTU medicine 2012?

9. Aussieland, sports sciences / nutrition / dietitics

So. What's it gonna be? Shoot me someone. Hammer me while I'm still stateless before I do something and possibly regret.

Sigh

Why.

Why does it always turn out this way?

When will I ever succeed?

Why is easy never easy enough.

Am I just not gay enough.

Why is Ryu gayer.

Are keyboard users doomed to failure,

Is an analogue gamepad the pivotal tool for success?

Why.

Reasons

What do I want?

What am I looking for

What do I lack

What do i need?

What do I want in life

Why does this void subsist

Why must I find a reason

Why cant I identify that reason?

Am I being realistic?

Are my perceptions grounded in reality?


Do I think too much

Happiness

Recess week started, and then recess week is over. What the heck. Recess week should be weeks, not week.

I'm supposed to be doing research now, but I ended up doing everything else hahaha. Here are things I found.


http://www.thehappinessshow.com/HappiestCountries.htm

Singapore is 23rd on the list, the first asian country. Sure not? :/ Taiwan is next at 31, and then Japan at 39.
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http://abcnews.go.com/2020/story?id=4097264&page=1

Sureee not?
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http://blog.miragestudio7.com/2005/11/architects-lawyers-and-prostitutes/

Whenever you see the word “Client” in something to do with building, you know there just has to be an architect involved because no one else in the building game ever refers to anyone as “clients.” It is such a strange word, isn’t it? In a shop you are a customer, on a train you are a passenger, in a hospital you are a patient, in a class you are a student, in the economy at large you’d be a consumer. But client? The only people who have clients are lawyers, architects and prostitutes, all of whom have to live with the reputation that they are simply out to screw you. Only the prostitute is honest about it.”

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http://www.careerbuilder.co.uk/Article/CB-47-Job-Search-UKs-20-Happiest-Jobs/?ArticleID=47&cbRecursionCnt=1&cbsid=2af32410070e41ef9f683318aa7bdba3-307338201-w2-6&ns_siteid=ns_us_g_happiest_jobs

http://www.virginmedia.com/jobs/features/ukshappiestprofessions.php

Hahahah hairdressers are the happiest people. Switch course already lar.
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http://current.com/1pepm4c

This one claims architects are #4 on the happiest jobs list.

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http://arbitat.com/discussion/017/index.htm

UK Architects Unhappy, US Architects Dying Off
Posted by JoeVare, 15 April 2005

According to City & Guilds (a London based vocational institute), you're (probably) not the only unhappy architect. In their 2004 Happiness Index, Architects were the 29th and least happy profession, behind such professions as butchers, bankers and civil servants. If you're thinking of a career switch, the whole index is:

#01 - Hairdressers - Perentage that are "Very Happy": 40
#02 - Clergy - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 24
#03 - Chefs/cooks - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 23
#04 - Beauticians - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 22
#05 - Plumbers - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 20
#06 - Mechanics - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 20
#07 - Builders - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 20
#08 - Electricians - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 18
#09 - Florists - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 18
#10 - Fitness Instructors - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 18
#11 - Care Assistants - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 18
#12 - Health care professionals - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 17
#13 - Media - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 16
#14 - Chartered engineers - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 15
#15 - Pharmacists - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 15
#16 - Scientists/R&D - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 15
#17 - Butchers - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 14
#18 - DJs - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 13
#19 - Interior designers - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 9
#20 - Travel Agents - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 9
#21 - Teachers - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 8
#22 - Bankers - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 8
#23 - Accountants - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 7
#24 - IT Specialists - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 5
#25 - Lawyers - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 5
#26 - Secretaries - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 5
#27 - Estate Agents - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 4
#28 - Civil Servants - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 3
#29 - Architects - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 2

Hairdresser woooo..

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http://www.time.com/time/2007/america_numbers/job.html

This one provides a very comprehensive ranking list.



Argh I don't know why I'm reading these. I don't survive well in reality.

I'm watching Ouran High sch host club, Big Bang theory, playing 3-4 games, training for cycling, swimming, and dancing, how to find time for studies seriously?

Sneaks!

WOOOO Recess weekk NAISEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE (: (: (: (: (:

GO cycling train for quadrathlon cuiiiiiiiiiii NOT NAISEEEEEEEEEEEE :C :C :C :C :C

Homework pile aplenty neverdo procrastinate somuch to do NOT NICEEEEEEEEEEE

EveryDay go out play play see friends catchup many NICEEEEEEEEEE C: C: C:

Jam jam prep up charity gig performance month october nextt Niceeeeeeeeeeeeee

Play much games pc play games psp devilmay cry4prototype plantsvszombies RA3 LINKS2001 L4d Dota Dissidia NiCEEEEEEEEEE.

Catchup more friends and more friends meeting NICEEEEEEEEEEEE.



Somes small sneak peek peek preview below nice, nice? NICEEeeeeeeeeeeee

I'd make it come to life

The empty jar and 2 cups of coffee

My mom sent me this email, so I thought I'd post it here for my fellow overwhelmed friends. hahaha.

Smileee. don't forsake your happiness, and don't forget your friends (:

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When things in your life seem, almost too much to handle, When 24 Hours in a day is not enough, Remember the story of the empty jar and 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students, If the jar was full. They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar.

He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full.. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar..
Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with an unanimous 'yes.'

The professor then produced Two cups of coffee from under the table and
poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty
space between the sand.
The students laughed.

'Now,' said the professor, As the laughter subsided,
'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.
The golf balls are the important things - God, family, children, health,
friends, and favorite passions – things that if everything else was lost
and only they remained, Your life would still be full.
The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, house, and
car. The sand is everything else -- The small stuff.

'If you put the sand into the jar first,' He continued, 'there is no room
for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life.

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never
have room for the things that are important to you.

So...

Pay attention to the things That are critical to your happiness.
Play with your children.
Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your partner out to dinner.

There will always be time
To clean the house and fix the disposal.

'Take care of the golf balls first -- The things that really matter.
Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.'

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee
represented.

The professor smiled.
'I'm glad you asked'.

It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,
there's always room for a cup of coffee with a friend.'

:D

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no need punching bag

I received a letter today, this is what it read:


"Dear Mr Ang

Congratulations! The University Admissions Selection Committee has approved your application for admission to the Na.nya.ng Tec.h.nological Univ.er.sity (NT.U) to read the following programme in academic year 2009-10, which commences on 11 August 2009:

Spo.rts Scie.nc.e & Man.agement
(First Year)

bla"


I was like..

wooooooo (insert imagination here)


Thank God (: